MISSING YOU SO MUCH

I'm missing you
and it's making me blue
I'm missing you
but what can I do
I'm thousand miles away, from you

It's been a week now since I left you and I know it is very hard on our part to be away from each other but I have no other option but to go back in the Philippines. I know you understand my situation and I am very thankful for your support and love. I'm more than hurt because as much as I don't want to leave you but I have to.

You know how hard for me to be away from you because I am already used that you are always with me. It's difficult for me to adjust that you are not on my side.

Long distance relationship is really hard, it is a test of our patience and love. Let's just take this as a challenge in our relationship and I am positive that we will be together again soon.

I am always missing you, and you are always on my mind every single minute. I am very thankful that you never fails to remember me everyday. I love you so much babe and please wait for me. I shall return, inshallah!

PAALAM MUNA AKING MAHAL

Nang dahil sa naging problema ko sa aking visa kinailangan ko tuloy umalis at iwan ang taong mahal ko. Hindi pala ganun kadali ang mag paalam, ngayon lang ako nakaranas nang ganitong kalungkutan.

Nung unang alis ko papuntang abroad hindi ko naramdaman ang lungkot, marahil excited akong makapunta ng ibang bansa, pero sa pag-alis ko sa UAE pabalik ng pinas dahil kinailangan, ganun pala kabigat sa dibdib lalo na kung ang iiwan mo ay isang taong mahal na mahal mo at ang pinaka masakit pa ay isang buwan palang kayong nagsasama.

When our love is at it's peak, it so sad that we have to seperate for a while. I really felt the pain because I don't wanna go home yet, but I have no choice.

I love my boyfriend very much, and I never love like this before. I had several boyfriends but this one is very special, if you had read my previous entry you will know why.

Of all the people who came to my life, he is the best one and I really felt the his love for me. Actions speaks louder than words, even without saying the 3 words, still his actions are more powerful than those words. He is always on myside, he is there whenever I needed him. Everyday I felt his love for me and there is nothing I want more from him.

Sa sandaling pagsasama namin, naranasan ko sa kanya kung gaano ako ka importante sa kanya. Lahat ng suporta ay binigay nya sa akin. Ako na yata ang pinakamasayang tao sa mundo sapagkat nakilala ko na ang taong aking mamahalin ng todo todo.

Hindi pa ako nagmahal nang ganito sa buhay ko at sa kanya ko lang ito naramdaman, at lahat gagawin ko para sa kanya. Hindi man naging matagal ang aming pagsasama dito ngunit para sa akin sapat na ito para patunayan na mahal nya ako.

Saying good bye is not easy, but I promised him that I will comeback, I will do all my best to be here and be with him again and I can't wait for that time to come. We will continue what we have started and I know it will happen. Maybe this is just a challenge for us to prove our love even we are miles apart.

" promise me you'll wait for me 'coz I'll be saving all my love for you, and I will be home soon...promise me you'll wait for me I need to know you feel the same way too, I'll be home...I'll be home soon"

GOOD BYE UAE

I can't belived that my journey here in UAE has ended so early, I am not yet ready to go home I am not yet prepared. I went here holding a tourist visa, from Qatar I went straight here hoping to find a good job. I know it is very difficult to go here without any assurance but still I took the risk.

I stayed in Dubai for a month and searched for jobs there, but unfortunately I wasn't successful, so I tried in Abu Dhabi hoping to find my luck there. In just two days I had two offers already, so I chose the one with higher offer, I declined the other one. I thought everything was fine until the time I moved to Abu dhabi. When I accepted the offer the manager has promised me the job so I was confident. Suddenly a big problem came, the company cannot issue work visa as it had a problem with the ministry of labor prohibiting them to issue work visa. In short, my application was cancelled and they can not assure to me when their problems with the labor be settled.  I was so devastated in hearing the news. I couldn't think of any other options, I have no plan B. All the sacrifices and the efforts in moving to another city were all wasted. Worst is my visa is about to expire in couple of weeks, another problem is there is a long holiday because of the Eid. I tried approaching the other company that I declined hoping that the slot is still available but It didn't work out as well. I tried walk-in with other companies here but I was not successful too. If I have ample time with my visa I would have continued applying but due to time constraint I just thought of going home.

The risk I took here is really a big challenge for me and I learned a lot. I thought the job that I am looking for is already within my reach but then suddenly it went away so quickly. I guess my luck is isn't here,or maybe it is not yet my time here, but I am really looking forward to come back here the soonest because someone is waiting for me here, but on my second try I want to make sure that there is already an offer, I don't want to take the risk anymore.